Jana Johnson Healing Works
2021

Musings

There are times when writing comes easy and I really enjoy it. I don't know that it's all worthwhile material to thrust out onto social media so I'll add it here and each person can choose whether to read it or not. 
COMFORT, aPRIL 2021

One thing I miss about having a “permanent” home (meaning somewhere in the USA) is my collection of books. When I left NYC I bequeathed my nephews with a pretty large collection, most of them around spirituality, psychology, self-help, with a good dose of fiction and nonfiction as well. They probably learned more about me through that collection than they had in the 20+ years of their lives. Maybe more than they cared to learn.

I loved having books in every room. I found it comforting in some way, held in the realm of so many possibilities. I didn’t read all of them but I liked the potential.

I probably read the most during my employment at The New Yorker magazine, having access to so much selection. I loved to be able to talk to people about recent publications and to hear other's experience of reading. I would collect all the different sized books with colorful binds and arrange them in my apartment so other people would catch glimpses when they visited.

When I moved to Bali I began to read less and less, until there was a period in which I don’t think I read anything larger than an online article for over a year. I was so consumed with my internal world and all the changes happening within that the external world didn’t hold much interest to me. Eventually though I began to long for some of my old books as I began to teach more and more. Some of those books were crucial to my learning and I wanted to share that information. I started to order ebooks out of convenience, but was never able to throw myself into reading off my ipad, phone or computer. So, I would pick up a hardcover book every now and then, until once again I had a good little stash in Bali. With another move I left the stash with a friend…just in case I returned. It’s been 4 years and it doesn’t feel like there is a return to Bali in the near future, so here I am again, purchasing book by book, restocking some old and adding some new.

There’s a café in Pondicherry - Cafe desArtes, that I’ve been frequenting. It has the vibe that I have been wanting…a place where I can sit for a few hours, not in the way of anyone, have some good coffee and write on my computer. I often sit near this pictured bookcase and stare across looking at the titles, wondering how each one got there; fiction, nonfiction, history, architecture, gardening…so many different genres. Others come up to the shelf and peruse, mostly not touching anything but just looking. Books are magnetic with mystery, history, fantasy, reminding us of just how incredibly creative and inspiring humans can be when they want to be.

Space. march 2021

For at least probably the last decade of my life, whenever I’m looking for a new home to live in for awhile, there are a couple of important characteristics to me: light and space/openness. It doesn’t have to be a huge space but whatever the space is it should be open. Although I appreciate the characteristics of older houses that have lots of small rooms, for me I need to feel like I have space to fully breath, to allow my self to fully spread out. I don't have a lot of things, it's just an energetic spread. The Universe always complies, even when everyone around me says I’ll never find a space like that in the area I am looking at.

I think I am drawn to the ocean for the same reason…when I’m in the ocean, or even when I’m just sitting at the ocean, I feel like I can fully exhale. It’s not even a conscious “letting go”, but an organic release that happens. One time, when I used to channel, I asked about this and the information I received was that the ocean is the one place where the energetic field can fully release and not get caught up in other energies, while also being purified. That made sense to me. It’s rare anyone walks out of the ocean saying it felt horrible…it’s always a big “ahhhh, that felt great!”.

I’m also a bit of a neat freak. Not compulsively so, and I don’t believe it’s about control. To me, a clean orderly house helps keep my mind clean and orderly. Chaotic messy space = chaotic messy mind. If I am feeling a bit ungrounded or confused, I naturally look around my house to see if I can clean or straighten things. I’m not really a linear thinker so I think having order helps me to stay grounded and focused. If I were to really just let myself go with the flow of my mind, I would probably be considered attention-deficit as I can easily start multiple things at once, but I’ve learned over the years that I do much better if I can keep myself focused.

It’s about finding balance energetically…I think naturally energetically I am much more formless, free flowing -  more propelled by what we deem as feminine qualities if I am to use that term, and it’s important to find the right balance of structure, routine and order – more masculine qualities, if I am to fully express myself. Otherwise, I end up feeling frustrated because I don’t finish things, or because it’s too mechanical and not from my heart. So the balance, the union…not 50/50 at all times, but a manageable balance that allows flow in a beneficial way.

shrinandanji, February 2021

As I continue my pack and prepare for my move, there is another significant chapter that is coming to a close. I basically spent 2020 alone due to the pandemic, but I spent the first two years here in Coimbatore with my teacher, ShriNandanji, in my home with me. To spend consistent one-on-one time with a spiritual teacher of this level is quite rare and I feel incredibly blessed and grateful. We welcomed his local following and I introduced him to some of my clients as well. It’s been an incredible journey in personal evolution, and also in working together with him as we bridged east and west, inspiring and supporting each person who came on their unique healing journey. Although our journey together isn’t ending, it is moving into a new chapter. There will still be time spent together and welcoming of others to work together in a new city, yet with all the shifting and changing in the world who knows how this next chapter will play out. For now, I am full of appreciation for the time ShriNandanji offered himself for my growth, and content in knowing that we will always be connected regardless of how life plays out.

52 solar returns, february 2021

This week marks the end of my 52nd year around the sun and the beginning of my 53rd. I think most of us who are getting “older” will agree that aging is a very odd process. The body ages to varying degrees and aspects of the mind change, but attitude/personality seems to remain at a certain younger age. For me, I “feel” about 42. So, it is always a bit jarring when people reflect back to me my older status with greetings like “Ma’am” or when I see pictures of myself and it is obvious that I am no longer a young woman. It’s just a rite of passage and I feel quite accepting of it, and yet still find myself feeling slightly puzzled by it all. As I begin to pack my home of the past 3 years, I feel very strongly that I am beginning a new chapter, not just in location but also in embodiment of Jana. As of Feb. 28th, at 52 years old and after almost a full year of solitude, I emerge healthy, clear-minded and strong. On March 1st I will relocate to Pondicherry, India to be closer to the ocean that calls me so strongly. It’s the first time in my life that I’ve done a “site visit” to a place that I am considering moving to – after multiple interstate moves in the US and 2 international moves – and the first time I will be bringing along more than just 2 suitcases. I actually own some furnitureThis move or at least the prep of it thus far has been quite smooth. Who knew a bit of planning could make things so much easier!In my younger years I moved hoping I would find something “more” somewhere else, running away from whatever seemed to haunt me at the time. When I left the US in 2012, I wasn’t running away from anything, it was more of a running towards something. It’s as if I could hear a calling in the distance. I wasn’t connected to Bali in any way and had zero expectations. This allowed for tremendous growth. When I moved to India in 2018 it was more of an inner calling that I heard and for some reason it is upon this land that I am able to answer that call. So here I am, 52 years of inhabitation on this earthly realm as Jana Elizabeth Johnson. The continuation of Life and all it reveals on a daily basis is my path. I had these pictures done a couple of weeks ago in Auroville, near Pondicherry on my last site visit. They are part of the energetic force I feel supporting me into this new chapter.Blessings of gratitude, appreciation and love from my heart to yours, with a special shout out to my family who ushered me into this life to be the woman I am today.